That side

     Pernah tak wonder what is it feels to see yourself from others point of view? Something as simple as their first impression on you, the thoughts they have about you, what they actually think of you as a person or anything that involve inside out of yourself. Would you be eager to know or afraid to unveil the truth? What if all the conundrum can be answered simply by viewing yourself through other people retina and cerebrum? Macam awesome je, macam awesome je rasanya. Oh ya, macam dan rasa, dua paksi berasaskan ketidakpastian.

     Well basically, as a person (of course), secara jujur, I actually enjoy seeing or listening people describing me. Not that ada 2 mata, satu hidung, ada mulut describe of things. Describe di sini macam describe things that you don't usually notice or know that you actually have in you. As an example, I've never notice myself changing language according to the other person use of language when interacting in social networking sampailah one day ada kawan ni tegur masa replying each other mention. Mulanya kerut dahi sesaat dua, scroll balik conversation, senyum sumbing sebab rasa impress ada orang perasan that kind of thing. Weirds tapi its like ada automatic switch that tune the brain and finger to respond according to language use, Melayu-Melayu, English-English dan sama waktu dengan loghat, slanga dan seangkatan dengannya. Not sure kalau ini norma kehidupan yang semua orang buat tapi for one to see you actually did this kind of things buat aku rasa macam awesome dengan capability minda sedar insan lain terhadap diri kita.

     Apart from the automatically-tune-to-other language-accordingly, aku selalu rasa separa kagum dengan spesis insan yang wise interpret diri kau by not taking a stand as you, like nasihatkan kau dengan memperingatkan pasal perasaan orang lain. Frankly speaking, I'm one of those yang jenis open up on everything tapi I'm not that type yang pandai express perasaan hatta marah mahupun sedih to another person baik kat family sendiri or sesiapa pun. Selalu terbit rasa terharu, syukur bila ada ingatkan kau tentang apa yang kau rasa tapi tak pernah luah. Yang selalu buat kau fikir impak tindakan kau yang akan produce outcome yang entah apa. Perempuan overthink, yes.

     Dek kerana kekaguman aku ini, maka rasanya bakal menyimpang jauh langkah patah perkataan ini akan pergi. Baik berhenti sebelum makin merapu =='